“It is easier not to shed truth but it is better to bring the truth to light.”
As much as you want to tell everything, you couldn’t get the courage to confess. You are afraid to be judged; afraid to be rejected; afraid to let them know how silly and foolish you’ve been. Or you just want to protect somebody else. You mask your cowardice with fierceness. You want to get away with it. You don’t want to answer the why’s and how’s. You reason out and look for an open door to flee.
But sooner or later, you have to shed light. Because if not, they will either found it out by themselves, or through somebody else. And that, my friend, is like engaging in an unnecessary-defenseless-battle. When confronted, you’ll be bombarded with questions — questions you’ve been avoiding for like years. Questions that would lead to another compelling question.. and to another.. until it reveals the truth you’ve been trying to hide. You look like a fool–nowhere to go and nothing to hide.
When it is hard to tell the truth, just tell it anyway. Hiding it will just put out peace and restoration. Find courage in the midst of fear. I once heard that,
“Courage is not the absence of fear but acting in the midst of it.”