I poured the boiling water into the mason jar with instant coffee, stirred then drank hurriedly.
Yes, it hurts.
It numbs my sense of taste. I can’t enjoy the sandwich afterwards.
What am I thinking? Nope. What am I reading that I forgot to cool down the coffee first before drinking?
Here are the lines that speak to my heart:
God does what it takes to get our attention. Isn’t that the message of the Bible? Isn’t that the message of the Bible? The relentless pursuit of God. God on the hunt. God in the search. Peeking under the bed for hiding kids, stirring the bushes for lost sheep. Cupping hand to mouth and shouting into the canyon.
Please understand. His goal is not to make you happy. His goal is to make you his. His goal is not to get you what you want; it is to get you what you need. And if that means a jolt or two to get you in your seat, then be jolted. Earthly discomfort is a glad swap for heavenly peace. Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble, but be brave! I have defeated the world” (John 16:33).
Amazing, the lengths to which God will go to get our attention.
I can totally relate to these lines as if they were written for me.
God called me so many times. I responded at each call but I also turn my back afterwards.
I am the epitome of ningas-cogon–only starting but never finishing.
And all the truth I accumulated over time about Jesus were turned into bland common knowledge without the fruit of a changed life. It is such a waste to know Christ only in my head but never experience a life of blessing as He promised.
But He did not give up on me.
He has so many ways and means to get my attention.
His means to call me are sometimes loving–
But mostly tough–
In the midst of my tug-of-war between being on-fire and cold Christian, He pursued my heart:
Fight for our relationship.
A call for action.
A nudge of love.
A command to obey.
So did I. And this time, I hope to finish the race.