I Don’t Understand

I need you.
Now.
Not later.
Nor tomorrow.
But now.

Will you come through?

Can you hold me?
As you hold all things together?
I need you.
But I don’t always want you.

I have been longing and wanting
Somebody but you.
I have been chasing and pleading
Someone else’s attention yet few.

Will you forgive me?
For I am supposed to run to you
Whenever I’m weak and weary
But I don’t always do.

You say that you are always near,
Close to the broken-hearted;
You understand all our fears
And identify with our pain.

I want to lean on your shoulder
And cry a river
I want to sit beside you
In silence and despair.

Will you cup my face?
Will you hold my hand?
Please wipe my tears
For I don’t understand.

Light a candle and light up my life.