Thanks, But No Thanks!


Remember this night.
How it feels like
You were just a valid reason
To cover up tracks.
Asking you out is only a courtesy.
You can come.
But you better not.

Next time, remember to pass.
Come up with an excuse
Or you will be used as one.
Spend your time somewhere else.
Somewhere worth your time.
Because every second you give
Is equivalent to love.
Hoping to be appreciated
Not trampled away.

You thought you were wanted.
Finally, someone you can be honest with.
Someone you can be yourself
Without thinking twice.

But you got it all wrong.
You are just a nice and smooth escape goat.

The “I-miss-you”
Is like a penny dropped in an empty can.
Loud and insincere.
The action doesn’t match the words.
The means won’t justify the ends.
The motive can’t be concealed.

Remember how the sweet words
Turned sour the moment it left the lips.
It should soothe your heart
But you were pierced instead.

Remember this night.
And never let yourself be used again
To satisfy one’s ego
Nor hide the filth of someone else.

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Halimaw Sa Poste

May knock-knock joke si SPACEPACITO sa PSA GC about “Halimaw sa poste.”

So ginaya ko siya at nag-knock-knock naman ako sa GC namin with my family.

Nanay ko lang ang online.

Hahaha! Di ko kinaya e. Di pa ko nagsisimula, soplak na ko.

So I demanded an explanation. I needed an acceptable reason.

Bwahahaha! May point naman siya. Alam nga naman pala niyang ako yun.

Sarap talaga ka-laughtrip ng Nanay ko. Sa kanya lang bumebenta joke ko. At tawang-tawa rin ako kapag bumabanat siya.

Dahil naging busy na ko after, yung joke ni SPACEPACITO hindi ko na nasabi. Next time nalang. Gagamit ako ng ibang account para sabihin na niya yung magic word na “who’s there?” Sino magpapahiram ng account sakin? 🙊🙉🙈🤣🤣🤣

PS: Kung gusto niyo malaman kung ano yung joke ni Space, reply: “Oo! Ano yun Jai? Please lang sabihin mo sa’kin!” Kung hindi, “Never mind. I-message ko nalang si Space.” Then send to 14344. 😂😂

Not FB Official? No problem!

Don’t get me wrong. You may like to announce it to the world and I’m totally okay with that. But hey, I’m fine with just us and a few trusted friends.

I’m an introvert no matter how extrovert I look. I’m not comfortable with spotlight. That’s why I still blog as general as I can even though all the rules in blogging tells me to write specifically.

So when it comes to our relationship: as long as our parents, leaders, and accountability partners know, I’m good. They meant “the world” to me.

I haven’t counted how many years I am waiting for you. But it gets lonely sometimes. Specially when I’m sick and I miss my mother. Don’t worry, I get over it–in a few days or weeks. Sometimes with chocolate, coffee and writing. Most of the time with prayer and encouragement through His Word.

I haven’t been faithful though. I’ve allowed relationships that I thought were “good enough” but end up ripping my already-ripped-view-of-marriage-and-sex. I’ve been hurt but I’ve caused pain in their heart as well. But the wonder of God’s grace and mercy have healed my wounds and I sincerely hope the same for them.

So wherever you are, I hope you are busy serving the Lord and multiplying leaders. I hope that you love the Lord genuinely that your contentment lies in Him. Then, when you are ready as I am, don’t hesitate to ask. I’m excited to meet you.

Just as I was overwhelmed with an answered prayer the other day, I’m sure that getting married with you will blow my mind as well.

Waiting expectantly,
Jai

Solo Travel And Fake Foodie Blogger

IKEA DXB! Ito na ang pinakamalayo kong solo travel since I came here sa UAE. Haha!

Let’s feast in this swedish meatball with mashed potato and gravy na walang strawberry jam kasi ubos na raw. Tatlong araw na raw silang walang stock. So ako nalang raw ang mag-adjust. Tutal, sanay naman ako dun. Anyway, andito na rin lang ako sa area kaya kumain na rin ako dito sa IKEA kasi kaninang 7AM pa yung last lamon ko. Namiss ko ‘tong meatballs nila na mas masarap kung may strawberry jam kasi nagtatalo yung tamis, asim nung jam at alat nung meatball at gravy. Kunyari foodie. Pero ang totoo niyan, ito lang kasi ang alam kong kainin. Hindi ko pa kilala yung iba. Saka nalang kapag may kasama na kong kumain dito. In the near 3 lightyears.

Malungkot yung food chart ko kasi walang kape. 6 dirhams yung kape nila against 3 dirhams na tubig. So tubig nalang di ba? Magkakape nalang ako sa bahay. Dapat kasi talaga nagbabaon ng tubig e. Gasino ba naman bumili sa Baqala (parang 711 nila dito) worth 1 dirham di ba? E pero wala na andito na ‘ko e.

Bukod sa gusto ko lang idocument ang pagpunta ko ng IKEA mag-isa, gusto ko lang din ishare ‘tong verse that became a source of encouragement for me today:

Before pa yan, I’m reading Isaiah and part of it is the prophecy of Isaiah to the Israelites. Sandamakmak na kasalanan na yung pinagagagawa ng mga Israelites at galit na talaga si Lord. But amidst all the anger of the Lord to the undeniable sins of His people, He still give hope to them through these verses:

“Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the LORD. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the good things of the land; but if you resist and rebel, you will be devoured by the sword.” For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭1:18-20‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Then boom! These verses just spoke to my heart. Para kasi kong Israelite sa tigas ng ulo. But these verses calmed my heart and gave me hope. So I prayed and asked the Lord to help me to be a willing and obedient daughter. His promise of good things of the land is a result of putting Him first as my Lord and obeying Him. I am trying my best to be still and remind myself that He is God.

There! I hope that whatever things that caused you to stumble, you will find God willing to help you stand up again and fight.

And when we get a chance, let’s have some coffee together, ha? Ikaw diyan, ako dito. Hehe

Chao! 🙂

ODE TO MY FATHER – K-movie

Ode To My Father
Photo grabbed from Age’s blog

This movie is such a tear jerker! Sakit sa puso at ngala-ngala.

Don’t have time to make a review so am sharing this by one of my fellow blogger-turned-friend, Age. Read her review and rating here: ODE TO MY FATHER – K-Movie

Visit her site at Anavenblog.com.

Level up na talaga sila ni Aysabaw e. May dot com na. Pa-fan sign naman mga bes. Wohoo!

Source: ODE TO MY FATHER – K-movie

Undivided Heart

Teach me your way, Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness;
Give me an undivided heart that I may fear your Name.
Psalm 86:11 NIV

I haven’t been faithful lately.

Browsed my little verse card and this one hit me.

So I started reciting these verses silently.
Asking God to grab me from the stillness of my mundane life.
Pleading Him to move me from passivity to relentless action.
Commanding every muscle to do something.
Do something.

He is greater.
He is higher.
He knows all things.
And I cannot take the idea of Him watching me do–nothing.
And worse, am into the gutter of sin.
Of tasting it.
Of wandering my mind off into doing something that will satisfy this growing pleasure.
Of dipping my tongue to the chocolate coated poop hidden in the treasure box of my past life.

Undivided heart.
Fear of your Name.
Let me have it.
Give me the grace to hang on.
Fight and put the swords up.
The sword of your Word.
Hide me at the back of your glory.
I cannot fight this alone.

Psalm 86:11 NIV

Wag Assuming. Nakamamatay.

Siya: Ji, may gagawin ka ba sa Wednesday?

Ako: Wala pa namang sched. Bakit?

Siya: May meeting daw.

Ako: Ah. Ok!

Puso: Akala ko yayayain mo ko kumain.

Utak: Wag assuming. Nakamamatay.

Ako: Shut up, both of you!