That’s the question of Fin to Gabe when shen was about to read the letter of her grandmother, Jaunty. The letter, which was written on Jaunty’s final days, would reveal the truth about their family’s true identity.
That question strongly resonated to me. I somehow wanted someone to ask if I needed company or some time alone. Because, honestly, I need a little of both. Somewhere in between.
I want a time alone so I could process all these thoughts and somehow see a light at the end of the tunnel and finally call it home. Right now, I have all the time needed to be alone but I fail to intentionally create time for myself.
But I also want a company at reach when I am lost in my train of thoughts. Someone I can connect instantly without having the need to explain myself. Someone who could understand deeply beyond my smile, joke, tears and positive outlook. Some shoulder to cry on without pointing out what I did wrong nor tell me plainly what to do. Some ears that would listen intently, sincerely. I know that would be someone perfect. And I know you would suggest where to look at, but I somehow lost my way and I cannot move an inch right now.
I’m stuck in the middle of “I’m okay” and “I’m not.”
Isn’t this absurd to hear from someone who just came from the Best Ten Days of their life?
This platform has been my sounding board for I am not as vulnerable to my other social media account than here. Since I can write better poems when in pain, I pen all my hurt in a poem so it won’t linger in my heart. So if you’ve been following my blog for the past two years, thank you for sticking around, specially on my dark-bitter poems, rants, and whatnot.
But now that I have received freedom through Christ, expect a more positive write-up that would hopefully bring encouragement to our weary hearts.
Surprisingly, I’ve gained new friends and support system here in WP.
I met a blogger for the first time and I’m-oh-so glad I did! I didn’t expect us to be so connected. I thought our meet-up would be awkward but to my surprise, it was so awesome and fun. She’s one of the people I love to hang out and pick brains with. We don’t mind trolling each other’s post in WP and IG. I love her humor and style of writing. I’m really glad we became friends. Itatago ko nalang siya sa pangalang:Aysabaw.
Aysabaw is a hotelier by day, blogger by night and a Rock Star in between. She is serving hot soup of awesomeness here: Aysabaw.com
I also became part of an online group of Single Bloggers that as soon as you join, they will encourage you to get out of the group. 😀 Philippine Single Association (PSA) has been my support system specially when I was confused and downcast. I haven’t met them yet but whenever we connect on FB, we feel like a family for we build each other up. It helped that most of us are Christians because we are constantly asking and receiving prayers from each other.
People may promise a lot of things like they won’t ever leave you until their last breath. It will surely sweep you off your feet.
However dashing or trustworthy that person may be, one day they will fail and may leave you hanging in the air–just like that. Without an acceptable reason. Without an explanation.
It will cause you to never trust anyone else. It will leave a wound so messy you cannot take another blow for you’ll surely die.
But the everlasting love of Jesus will heal your deepest scars. You will remember the pain but it won’t ever sting. And if one day you stumble and the hurt, worries, and agony starts creeping in again, you can cling on to the ultimate source of joy. He is not like all the other people whom you’ve trusted and given your all. He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will never reject you, His child. He loved you even when you are still a sinner. He never fails to love you if you stumble again.
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