Happy Hormone For A Not So Happy Heart

I lied when I said it’s nothing.

That all the mockery and accusations are not getting into my skin.

It is creeping, slowly, sticking into my sagging skin and biting every bone, making itself home.

I don’t know if the people around me, which I consider friends are still my friends

When they are all laughing behind my back

I don’t know if it is safe to tell them what I feel or what I know

I don’t really know if I can thrust fall in the crowd

I hear their voices mocking

Their stare–scanning

Looking for something to laugh at

Something to talk behind my back

You have a leader bully

And you guys happen to be in the flock

I share smiles with you

Share my life with you

But knowing how you cooperate with the leader bully

Causes me to step back

And consider who among the flock are my confidant

I see the contempt behind the smile

It hurts to know that no one from the flock stand against the leader bully

How can someone do so?

Who am I to stand up against?

I guess no one among you are my confidant

Eleonor Roosevelt said,

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

I guess I am allowing the leader bully to make me feel inferior

So bad

That it is now creeping in my skin

In my thoughts

In my writing

And now in the way I treat the flock

I lied when I say it’s nothing

I hope someone among you will stand for me

At least I’ll know that you are genuine and true

As I am to you


I Think I Was Just Envious Of The Lovebirds

I am sitting here

Under the setting sun

Beside the chirping love birds

Or the lover and the apple of his eye

Thinking of how to escape this agonizing emotion

A mixture of contentment and discontentment

Misplacement and satisfaction

Loneliness and freedom

Loved and abandoned

Needing to stay and wanting to get away


Repeat until fade

Hide And Seek

The sun is playing hide and seek with the moon.

But they never get to find each other.

Like how I never get to find the reason of why I loved you.

You played hide and seek too well.

Fallen Out

The leaves have fallen out from the tree and fell in love with the ground.

All to be left dried and broken.

And there’s no turning back because they have given their heart and all since they turned away from the tree.

Aquatico Resort, Laiya, Batangas

Aquatico Beach Resort Laiya Batangas October 2015 So this trip happened with my officemate-turned-ngetest-best-friend. It was a good and perfect way to escape the busy street of the metro. If you enjoy sand, sunset and infinity pool, you can go check this place out. It is a very memorable trip with this girl friend before I head into […]

Love You Back

I can live this life on my own, or so I thought.

I cannot even breathe without you.

Your love is higher than this tower

Deeper than the ocean

Wider than the sky

How can I not love you back?

I Wish

I wish I can tell you I love you the way you passionately show yours everyday.

If you cut my heart in half, I wish it is beating for you, my love.

I have an affair with each and every thing my heart has created but you love me the same.

No. You love me more than I deserve to be loved.

You paint the sky with blue and white. You make fountains that cry and dance.

You deserve more than me and my cheating heart.